Lately, people have been telling me that I look sad. Others have gone as far to say that I need to get a girlfriend. The truth is that I am sad, but I don't really think a girlfriend would solve my problems.

Have you ever...

...felt like the world and everyone in it was passing you by, while you just sat there, unable and unwilling to move?

...felt like you were stuck between two worlds, and that you didn't belong to either world?

...felt that what you were doing was not worthwhile at all?

...had the luxury of so many good things, but foolishly squandered all these things only to feel guilt and dissatisfaction with yourself?

...felt that your time was quickly coming to an end?

...found yourself walking alone in the dark, uncertain what lied ahead?

Yeah, I'm feeling and experiencing all of these things all at once. But I don't want people to pity me and say that I look sad... I don't even want people to encourage me, because I've already had enough of that... It's good to hear, and I thank my friends from the bottom of my heart, but encouragement can only go so far with me. (People have encouraged and encouraged some more, and now I feel like I have to make the next few moves myself.)

I think this is a time in my life where I have to deal with a lot of my own personal issues. It's a struggle between God and man, and God is trying to weed out some of the foolishness that I've cherished for so long. As painful as it may look, it's ultimately a good thing!

So, the next time that you see me, don't say that I look sad or that I need a girlfriend. Instead, know that God is somehow working in and through me, and pray for me.